The last moment

Her eyes turned black what now I'm just a companion carer never had experience of  doing a CPR  My God she stopped breathing her face was black as well . I could feel how my heart was beating I was ice cold.i have never seen someone died in front of me . What comes in my mind was hit her on the chest no I might hurt her I place my left hand in the middle of her chest put my right hand on top press my hands very gentle on her chest.nope nothing happened.i started to cry. Scream at her to breath I hit her on the chest with my fist says that she can't die on me. Trying to open her mouth put my finger in her mouth pushed her tongue down so that air can get in . A loud noise came out .it was like diesel truck

Than her breathing came back Thank God. She said only for you my girl. The daughter was so shocked she couldn't make a call she was shaking so badly rum to the neighbors to help the ambulance arrived the old woman was talking like nothing happened to her. Her other daughters arrived We all went to the hospital

The last moment!!!

We were having lunch, she said "I'm very tired, can I go and lay down,' I looked at her and said to her,sit a little longer ,she said no she's tired 

I took her to the bathroom her walk was so weak .It was like she couldn't make it to the bathroom. She was hanging on me no really hanging on me as if it was important for me to hold her. I felt how weak her hands was. Got her on the toilet her breathing was weak .she called her daughter to come and and help to get up. But eventually she got up.my word I could feel the weakness in her feet. My support was depending on it. We got my the bed. She couldn't turn around.Fell on the bed I try to turn her around

Her eyes  turn black.WFK.What kind colour is that. I have never seen someone with black eyes What doesn't means.am I stupid 

Dementia

Dementia

It's not a easy road 

The last time when I was online was 1yr ago 

When I was taking care of my 1st patient my word was that a a roller coaster. My patient has pinched me slapped me my arms was blue of marks my poor face😱😓😥

At the end she could not walk 

That morning she said me please let me stày in bed I said no it's not good to stay in bed

She got up have her bath breakfast after I took her back to bed her eyes turned black I got such a fraid i felt the cold ran through my bones 😳😬💨

But I said to myself it's probably nothing or does it means something I don't I never saw someone dying in front of me her eyes turn back to normal shhh

Slept again but with a funny snoring..

At lunch time took her to the table she ate when she had to get her legs was weak. Her daughter helps me to take her to the bathroom........